Friday, September 17, 2004
i dont really know what to say. i was so excited that ryan was back, and now he's dead. i have no idea why im even writing in this except im alone for the weekend and going absolutely crazy. last night when i found out at work, they sent me home and i just sat here. i literally cannot do anything. around midnight i found myself cleaning my bathtub. today i sat on my couch and was thinking and i realized i was staring at the wall for an hour. tonight im going to sit at dogtown b/c kristy is working. i just need to get out of the house. tomorrow i might go to keith's party but im not sure i feel like being around a lot of people. im really confused. and really angry.
