Lin......duh!

Your beauty is FUN!!! Man, you really don't CARE
about the way you look because it shouldn't get
in the way of you having a good time. You love
being around lots of people and are very
friendly too. Your beauty tends to be very
ordinary at first but your care-free nature and
contagious laughter make you very appealing.
You've got great verbal skills and your sooo
easy to get along with because not only are you
quite understanding and compassionate but your
light-hearted about things as well. You don't
get under stress that much which helps you keep
up your perky personality. Your beauty can be
characterized by a laugh.



ok.


i hate my car i hate my car i hate my car. seriously people, if you ever complain about your car...just be happy it starts.

so today when i was driving behind the LA after spanish, i see this guy sprawled out on the grass, coming up from Reflection pond. he was alone. he had books next to him. he was on his stomache, with one hand stretched out in front of him and one leg bent, and his face down in the grass....

ummmm. i wanted to stop to see if he would move...but i decided against it. as i drove away, for some reason all i kept hearing playing in my head was "Are you ok? Are you ok?......Call Emergency Response! The number is 911!" hahahahahaha. i think that was from a middle school health class video. maybe high school. whatever the case, it popped into my head like i had just watched the movie. if you know which one im talking about, you'll find this humorous.

anyway. i also heard on the radio today a song that reminds me of Ryan. well, it always has, but it was the first time i've heard it since he died. so then i started crying. and it was just bad. i think it's starting to sink in that he is gone. before it was just the shock of him dying. now its the shock of him being DEAD. he will never be here. i will never talk to him again. i will never laugh at his goofiness. we will never get to play RL. it just plain old sucks.

will someone please tell me what is wrong with me? why dont i have a boyfriend? there are a lot of bitches out there who have boyfriends and i am NOT a bitch and i dont have one! why do bitchy people get them? do boys like being bitched at? do they like uptight girls who are no fun? do they like prissy little girls? guess so! haha. wow listen to me. i sound like a bitch.


hmmm. maybe i should just get myself a Chia pet. work my way back up.